This letter was written for me by my boyfriend before I left to study in Rome.*
To my dearest itialianest bean,
Where do I begin? You know it’s hard for me to write my feelings down or even put them into words but ill try for the bean. You are the love of my life baby. I have never ever felt the way I feel about you for anyone else and I really mean it. I have never wanted to make anyone as happy as I want to make you. I would literally do anything for you to be happy. You make my life so much better baby, we have so much fun together. With the others I have dated I would look at a trip like this as a total relief and an escape from all the bullshit. But with you I see it as literally a piece of me leaving for 5 weeks. I have never felt that way about anyone. I always want to be near you and with you and never get sick of you. I am so excited for you to go off and experience Italy and eat awesome food and meet awesome people. I hope you have the most amazing time, I’m really happy you are doing this. I want you to know that I will be thinking about you every second of the day wishing I could hold you in my arms and kiss you. You make me so happy baby and everything I do, I do with you in my mind because you are such an important part of my life. My heart and everything I am belongs to you and only you baby. I promise to send you emails updating you on what I did during the day and I can’t wait to hear how you spend your days and crazy evenings there. I’ll punch any guy that looks at you. J you are the sexiest most beautiful thing in my life and I am so proud to call you my girlfriend and the love of my life.
With all the love I could ever possibly give,
p.s. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU
p.p.s you are so f'ing cute it kills me
p.p.p.s you complete me (sike nah, but really if Jerry McGuire hadn’t used it I def would have thought of it and used it on you)
* reader submission
blitz sport jacket
old zara jeans
barbara bui shoes
Yesterday I finally took out my karate jacket that I bought last summer. That's right.. insted of buying a sports inspired one that seems to pop up everywhere I bought a real one from an online sports shop, and I kinda love it. I did take me a year to put it on but I think I might get surprisingly much wear out of it this season...
ps. I listed some of my shoes in the shop!
And congrats to Frida for winning the mtv x gillette style competition! more about it here..
My story starts like a million others - girl gets her heart broken at a young age, stops believing in love, meets guy who makes her change and open up. But unlike a million other stories, mine doesn't have a happy ending.
I signed up to a dating website when I was bored. It was just out of curiosity at first and to meet new people, since I love to travel. Until one day this guy comes up as a suggestion. A quick look at his profile and I immediately decided to congratulate him for such a well written about me section. And so it all started. Long messages being exchanged every single day. Confessions, complaints, all the things you would talk to a friend, we wrote to each other. We became friends, but something was growing inside me, a weird, unsettling feeling, but I decided to shrug and let it go. Until the day I drunkenly decided to tell you everything - all my feelings and thoughts. And to my surprise you said you felt the same and when you did so... oh, it was like a breath of fresh air. I finally felt happy after so many years of faking smiles and trying to drag myself through life. My heart filled with hope.
And when I thought I couldn't be happier, you said you were coming to my country to visit me. My insecurities took me by storm and I started to think that it was to good to be true. That such a good looking guy would never want a girl like me.
But you came, and I reunited all the courage I could to meet you, and when I first saw you I knew I had found someone worth fighting for. I knew that it would be worth all the heartache, the distance and the insecurities.
My life became you. I would go out and think about you all the time, always wishing you were here. I would dream about you. I would thinking of you so much that it started to frighten me.
After you left I was such a mess that I decided that for the first time I had to go after someone. And so I did. I flew all the way to your country so I could see you again. And for some reason, everything was so fucked up. You met me once and then ignored me, ran away from me, and words can't explain how painful it was, how broken my heart was. I would walk around the streets of that foreign and unknown country trying to find reasons for all that, trying to fool myself into thinking you were just too busy to meet me, that I came at the wrong time. I had to fool myself, otherwise I wouldn't be able to take it. I would just... break.
After many attempts to contact you, you finally responded. We had dinner. And then all of a sudden you said you wanted me to be your girlfriend. At first I thought it was a joke, because it was too good to be true, way too good. But you said it again later that night, and I remember going back to my hotel with the biggest smile on my face. That was the only day when I was truly happy. I made plans to move to your country, or to a country nearby so we could be closer and give us a shot. But then you ignored me again after that, and I was left puzzled. I had to come back home broken hearted, lost, without knowing what to do.
Ever since that day you were never the same, we were never the same, and I wonder what went wrong. There isn't a day that goes by without me thinking of you, longing for you. The sadness I felt before meeting you came back. And even though you broke my heart so many times, I would still do whatever I can to be closer to you, to be with you. I want the truth, I want your honesty back. I wish you would just tell me how you're feeling so I can stop torturing myself. Because I want you, I want us. I want me there with you, or you here. I want to cross streets holding hands, have dinners, watch old movies and walk around town. I want adventures, drunken nights. I want happiness. I want you, only you.
I want to know what's broken so I can fix it, because I can't imagine myself living a life without you.
Jeg savner dig...
Today I wore a super versatile topshop belt that I now want to pair up with everything I own.. it's been ridiculosly cold again so I took out my favorite topshop knit but was still freezing. The added scarf is nothing but a few meters of chiffong, left it with raw edges the way I like it.. so just a few much loved, simple basics to keep me warm that afternoon.
You have been my greatest. My fear is that no one will ever be what you are to me, today i had to make a decision. I could no longer live in limbo, I could no longer live without you and with you all at the same time, i could not think of everyone else who has you when I'm not there or that you might avoid me the next day after loving me the night before.
You are incredible and a man who will achieve all and know no boundaries, I am drawn to your soul like it was made to light mine up but i know that you can't be it. Even though you were my Mr., you can't be him because my soul mate will feel it too,
but he will tell me it's true.
love Ally x
luk ap shirt
h&m maxi skirt
alexander wang shoes
Not having the easiest week, so I'm glad it's over.
But hey let's talk about the dress instead... I wore an old shirt, same as here and then just tied it in to a mess with a full length maxi skirt. I guess it could be done a million different ways... also a bit weird that the shirt is an old random one form italy and the skirt is h&m but still they are similar enough are to pass as a dress..
and last reminder to remember to vote for your gillette favourite outfit over at musictelevision.fi/justlegs
I had a brutal crush on you but I said to myself I wouldn't do anything about it. When I heard about you and another girl though, I thought it's now or never. So I simply walked to where you were and since then there has only been you.
You make me laugh so much and you awakens every butterfly in me. You whisper sweet words in my ear and I want to hug you all the time and you tell me you want me to. You giggle when I give you a thousand kisses all over your face and I remember you said I'm the prettiest girl in town. I don't think about what's happening or will happen, I'm just enjoying every moment with you.
But in every relationship we have - with girls, boys, friends - sooner or later we argue. And suddenly it all feels so fragile.
What will happen now?
How much does he like me?
Will this end what's between us?
Wow, there's so many things I still don't know about him.
Will he hurt me?
Will he say things that makes me cry?
If I stay now, will he take me in his arms if I get sad?
If I go now, will he call me tomorrow?
Gosh, WHY do I have to be so emotional?
Does he think I'm too sensitive?
Is this about what he said about things going so fast?
Wait - it was "so fast", not "too fast", right? Damn. I can't remember.
What does he want me to say when he tells me that?
But if he meant it in a bad way, why would he also tell me he doesn't want to be with anyone else?
I hope that part wont change now when we argue.
Is he as scared of all those feelings as I am?
I wish I was a mindreader.
What was we even arguing about?
Oh, I remember. Are we really having an argue about that?
Well, I guess this learns us that both are really stubborn.
I don't want him over there. I want him to be closer.
Will he reject me if I ask for a kiss instead of talking about whatever we think different about?
I really want you. I really like you. But I don't tell you that tonight. Instead I'm doing what I know is wrong - I'm walking away, I'm going home. Because even if we're having an incredible time, I don't really know you and your thoughts and if you think "us" is happening too fast instead of so fast, I don't want to hear it tonight. Each day I want to have you one more day so me liking you as much as I do is really freaking me out.
And to all of you whose hearts are aching by liking someone and not doing anything about it - what are you still doing here? Go tell them, go take a shot, go fall in love!
Sometimes you have to give life a push and hope that it's the right time and place and that both are ready for what may come. The worst thing that can happen isn't even that bad - if he/she doesn't feel the same at least you will feel awesome about telling them how special they are.
But if everything goes well, it can be amazing.
Remember though - your heart will ache anyway, because you're so scared to screw it all up and the feeling you get by the thought of losing something great is almost as awful as not having it at all.
Lots of love to all of you!
zara mens knit
tom ford sunnies
Looks like it's blue jeans week on the blog.. I (and many others) have been on the look out for flare jeans for quite some time... The problem is they are never quite flare enough. These are at least a start, I grabbed them from a sample sale, but was told they are current season..
My beib is out of town golfing again, I'm alone, forgotten and abandoned... emptying my secret candy stash and so on. Luckily my cousin was in town this week, so thanks Stina for snapping these shots the other day
One morning i woke up and i saw that i had got text message at 02:29 am.
It was from my boyfriend.
"I just love everything in you.
Every time you laugh or smile
I melt inside.
When i can be with you
i'm the happiest guy in the world.
What i am trying to say,
you mean the world to me
and i love you from bottom of my heart.
I'm sorry for all my mistakes and that i have been jerk.
Three words eight letters.
That means i love you.
I hope that i didn't wake you up.
Sweet dreams darling."
Loving clear plastic things atm. something I wouldn't have taken seriously a while ago. Jil sander plastic bag, margiela plexi clutch.. I am sure many are with me on this one right? Colored plastic - also nice but maybe that is for another post.
we have h&m bag & necklace and margiela shoes and rings
ps. Should have totally added my prada plexi shoes to the bag aswell
I'm writing you this letter because I can't do this anymore. I love you so much. I miss you everyday. I've been wondering if you've been thinking about me... will you ever want me again? will you every love me again like you did? These are questions I ask myself over and over again, but they're questions that will never be answered at this point. I can't keep wondering anymore. It's not fair that you've moved on and I have been stuck in the same spot, afraid to move. I know I'm doing it to myself, I have been for far too long. Even though the thought of not speaking to you scares me, I have to do it for myself. I can't be your friend and act like I'm okay when I'm not just for the sake of still having you in my life... You used to tell me you would never get over me, that you could see yourself with me for a very long time. If those feelings were strong and true then they must still be in you and maybe one day you'll be able to express them again. But I have to stop thinking about how it was with you because its gone.. I feel like a fool for holding on this long. Am I a fool? Or a person who is just truly in love? I have to let you go H.. I've been avoiding this for four months and I know I could probably keep it up for a long time but I need to be strong and take this stand... Thank you for being one of the greatest things that came into my life. Thank you for teaching me so much about myself. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. I can never hate you because I know that everything you did was out of love, but I hate that it had to end. I even hate that I can't wish or hope you will come back to me anymore. Talking to you and seeing you will just set me back no matter how much I tell myself it won't.
I miss you so much & I always will.
I hope you accomplish every goal you set for yourself, I hope you figure out everything you were unsure about, and I hope above all that you are happy.
I wish I could be there to see it all happen.
But the reality is, you left me
& now its time for me to let go.
I will always love you,
h&m against aids waistcoat
Just a quick outfit from the week, it's been amazingly summery but now we are back to leather jacket weather again.
But enough about the weather, how about finland taking gold tonight in the ice hockey world championships?! CRUSHING sweden 6-1... yeeaahhh being a huge hockey hooligan I could give anything to be in my home country tonight... Finns, drink on my behalf!
- je t'aime ♥
- Gym pants
- i am so proud
- love is...
- Wang for day and night
- what's broken so I can fix it
- Buckle up thursday
- perfection x 2
- feel what i am thinking
- he will tell me it's true
- you got me smiling in my sleep
- what are you still doing here?
- let's be adventurers
- Blue jeans
- sweet dreams darling
- you are the sunshine
- Ihanaa leijonat
- See through
- I will always love you
- Taking gold
- On the road
- i hope i don't fall in love
- the more i see you
- a break from white
- please let me go.
- Spring report
- Color clash
- we can make this last
- i never thought...
- Stopping by Gränna
- which do you believe?
- torn between two
- By the sexiest man in fashion
- i am yours to keep
- Rosy leather
- keep coming back to you
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